im pretty sure its the worst thing ever right behind involuntary morphine high and unasked for nasogastric line. and, you know, vivisection, but whatever
do i? haven't actually gone through with snapping anyone's neck yet, and it's been, what, a week? two? i think that's a record
yeah well the vivisection you get used to after the first six years, but being fed through a tube shoved up your nose and down your throat never stops being weird
[ that's a lie. the vivisection is always the worst. but he remembers how much talking about the more fucked up parts of hapsburg had rattled bucky, and keeps that to himself. ]
[ Bucky knows that better than anyone else. Hours hooked up to an IV, to a nasogastric tube, to all sorts of things they just wanted to put him on -- Bucky understands that. But there is nothing worse than being operated on; he knows Andyr is lying. ]
You must be enjoying eating whatever you want now.
definitely too late for that. the cake and getting sick.
[ pretty much anything sugar he inhaled not even an hour after getting here, and threw a lot of it up another hour after that. ]
that's what i get post-op. i heal and metabolize fast so usually a day or so, more if its a really bad one. dont trust me to take meds or not pick at stitches, i guess. solid food when im just in the cell, though.
[ they haven't actually talked much like this. seemed harder for bucky, and maybe once andyr's been out a while thinking on where he was will be difficult for him too. as it is now, it more just makes him feel less alone, like when he'd pass notes with posie, or text stupid threatening crap to val. tell alva about the last surgery they did on him, with all the gross details. not everyone back home likes to listen to it either, not even most. alva's always put up with him better than most. enough that he didn't just feel like he was tapping at the walls and rattling the bars all alone and in the dark, forgotten by the rest of the world. he wonders how similar it was for bucky, if there were others around, if it was more like andyr - kept sealed away in a cell you hate being so familiar with. ]
[ they haven't talked like this before, and bucky knows that andyr is sharing something very important with him -- something he probably hasn't told very many people, considering his knee-jerk reaction to things is to bare his teeth and launch an attack, like the world's most aggressive rottweiler.
still, andyr paints the picture and bucky quietly fills in the blanks, staring at the text in the phone. it's cold, words on a screen -- they can be clinical about this, even if the horrors of what's happened presses steadily on his consciousness, a monster within him that he has to figure out how to live with. ]
a tube. you haven't sent me your fish fact for the day.
[ that's the most andyr will get out of bucky for now -- it's nothing personal; it's just that he really doesn't want to talk about it. ]
[ all he does for commentary, as it's pretty clear bucky isn't interested in discussing it. fine, he can respect that. as for fish facts, let him just amend that. ]
Plecostomas fish are freshwater fish that feed on algae and the waste from other fish. They shouldn't be mixed in tanks with goldfish, as they're attracted to the extra slimy coat they have and will attached to the fish.
[ It's actually comforting that Andyr doesn't make a big deal of it - the last thing he needs is someone coming down on him and wondering why he doesn't speak up. So when Andyr moves on and talks about fish, Bucky's a lot more receptive, focusing on what he tells him instead of the monsters he keeps at bay. ]
the goldfish could die. they have that slime coat as sort of a stress reliever and immune system boost. when you take it off, they're really vulnerable, and easily freaked out.
also why you don't want to touch fish much with your hands or a net.
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do i? haven't actually gone through with snapping anyone's neck yet, and it's been, what, a week? two? i think that's a record
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[ that's a lie. the vivisection is always the worst. but he remembers how much talking about the more fucked up parts of hapsburg had rattled bucky, and keeps that to himself. ]
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[ Bucky knows that better than anyone else. Hours hooked up to an IV, to a nasogastric tube, to all sorts of things they just wanted to put him on -- Bucky understands that. But there is nothing worse than being operated on; he knows Andyr is lying. ]
You must be enjoying eating whatever you want now.
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[ because he didn't have birthdays in hapsburg. hell, they hardly ever told him what day it was most of the time. ]
what about you? guessing they didn't bake you cupcakes either
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[ the sudden mental image of HYDRA baking cupcakes is so unexpected and out of left field that he can't help but snort. no. no, of course not. ]
IV lines and NG tubes. They ensured that I took in an optimal amount of calories to preserve muscle mass.
[ No more, no less. Eating solid food fucked up his system for awhile there. ] Did you get sick from the food at first?
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[ pretty much anything sugar he inhaled not even an hour after getting here, and threw a lot of it up another hour after that. ]
that's what i get post-op. i heal and metabolize fast so usually a day or so, more if its a really bad one. dont trust me to take meds or not pick at stitches, i guess. solid food when im just in the cell, though.
[ they haven't actually talked much like this. seemed harder for bucky, and maybe once andyr's been out a while thinking on where he was will be difficult for him too. as it is now, it more just makes him feel less alone, like when he'd pass notes with posie, or text stupid threatening crap to val. tell alva about the last surgery they did on him, with all the gross details. not everyone back home likes to listen to it either, not even most. alva's always put up with him better than most. enough that he didn't just feel like he was tapping at the walls and rattling the bars all alone and in the dark, forgotten by the rest of the world. he wonders how similar it was for bucky, if there were others around, if it was more like andyr - kept sealed away in a cell you hate being so familiar with. ]
where'd they keep you?
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still, andyr paints the picture and bucky quietly fills in the blanks, staring at the text in the phone. it's cold, words on a screen -- they can be clinical about this, even if the horrors of what's happened presses steadily on his consciousness, a monster within him that he has to figure out how to live with. ]
a tube. you haven't sent me your fish fact for the day.
[ that's the most andyr will get out of bucky for now -- it's nothing personal; it's just that he really doesn't want to talk about it. ]
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[ all he does for commentary, as it's pretty clear bucky isn't interested in discussing it. fine, he can respect that. as for fish facts, let him just amend that. ]
Plecostomas fish are freshwater fish that feed on algae and the waste from other fish. They shouldn't be mixed in tanks with goldfish, as they're attracted to the extra slimy coat they have and will attached to the fish.
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What happens when that occurs?
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also why you don't want to touch fish much with your hands or a net.
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